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dandeli_n @ 2003-11-01T13:50:00

2003-11-01T21:51:17Z

<3. Hi. Halloween sucked. I'm sick. I worked today, from 10 AM - 4:30 PM. When I got home, I drank hot tea & theraflu. I talked to Charles & Sar. (Made me feel better.) I took a hot bath then fell asleep for an hour and a half. Afterwards, I got ready. Mindy called me for a bit, then me, Tisha, Ashley, & Hayley went to a haunted house. It was stupid. Hayley & Ashley were scared shitless, it was so funny. I was all just walking through with a bored look on my face. This guy dressed as Micheal Meyers was behind me like following me (it was supposed to be scary) & I turned around and said "HEY SEXY. I'VE ALWAYS WANTED TO MAKE OUT WITH MICHEAL MEYERS." It was great. Sigh. I'm so sick. It's this fucking weather. One day it's cold as hell, the next it's humid and hot as shit. Blah. Stupid Florida. I wish Florida would die. Anyways. Yeah. Last night was pretty funny, I called Brandee's ex girlfriend and pretended to be someone else while she was on the other end of the phone. Her ex talked SO much shit. It was fucking hilarious. I miss Charles. And Sar. And Des. BLAH. Ashley, Hayley, & Tisha are at Denny's. Ashley called me on her cell phone. Apparently David (boy she's 'talking' to) is there with two hoochie mamas. :( WTF. Lame. Okay. I'm going now. I have taken so many new pictures, you guys. If you want to see them, you should IM me sometime. I have a new AIM sn, it's beautiful shun. <33. Happy motherfucking Halloween.

dandeli_n @ 2003-10-30T14:38:00

2003-10-30T22:39:32Z

Wake up lying in a patch of four leaf clover.

dandeli_n @ 2003-10-30T00:25:00

2003-10-30T08:26:12Z

Boys shouldn't lie.
Or lead girls on.
Stuff like that.
I don't know.
It's stupid.
D'oh. But I still like the boy.
WHATEV.

dandeli_n @ 2003-10-29T22:17:00

2003-10-30T06:17:55Z

Updates are fucking stupid and lame.
Fuck off and die.

dandeli_n @ 2003-10-27T16:30:00

2003-10-27T22:33:07Z

BACK.

dandeli_n @ 2003-10-04T02:54:00

2003-10-04T07:52:42Z

I'M GOING BACK TO vulcan. ADD IT OR FUCK YOU.

!&#

2003-10-03T02:21:08Z

DEAR AMANDA,
LET'S SWITCH BACK TO OUR OLD JOURNALS, K.

dandeli_n @ 2003-10-02T18:32:00

2003-10-02T23:31:50Z

HAHAH.

I go outside.

Me: Is it lightening out here?
Robert: No, the light bulb in the laundry room just blew.

AAAAHAH i love me sometimes.
I quit my job, I left in tears.

a moment that is: the "big boss" insulted me
a moment that is: for the last time
morexedge: whow? what happened?
a moment that is: i started crying and said 'i fucking quit'
a moment that is: i OPEN that store. im there almost everyday, i work overtime everyday. for FREE. i'm the only dependable one. im the best person at that store.
a moment that is: but the big boss said "youre not good enough"
a moment that is: so what the fuck ever man
morexedge: whhy did he say you weren't good enough
a moment that is: idfk
a moment that is: cause i dont sell everyday
a moment that is: i don't see him fucking selling anything.. he doesnt even work there hes just the "owner"

Fuck that shit. KBYE!
COMIN ON YEEEAAAAAAAA HAAAAA!

dandeli_n @ 2003-10-01T15:17:00

2003-10-01T20:24:52Z

Do you ever try so hard not to cry that your eyes are practically burning and you feel the ocean of tears swelling up behind your retina?
That's how I felt five minutes ago, but the aching in my chest finally gave in and the stream of tears started rolling down my face.
My mom and my dad fought over the phone.
The yelling, the harsh yelling pierced my ears with so much hate.
I can't take this.
My dad has never done anything for me or my sister.
Two years ago, Christmas.
He bought my sister and I a PAIR OF FUCKING PAJAMAS FROM WAL MART.
& He bought my fucking stepmom's kids BOXES full of Abercrombie, A&E, Gap clothes.
Heh. I never really thought about it until now.
But.
I fucking hate my father. He's not even a father.
He's a lame excuse for a human being.
He and my mother are fighting because he wants to stop the child support. Why? Cause he's in financial debt. Heh. Stopping supporting his kids because he can't afford bills. Whatever.
I haven't asked my dad for anything since my parents got divorced. I wouldn't ask him for anything now, because I know he wouldn't help me out. Every time he calls (maybe once every few months) it's "GO TO SCHOOL, GET A GOOD PAYING CAREER." I hate you, dad. I fucking hate you so much.
You know what my dad did for my graduation?
Sent me 25$ in a crumpled envelope.
And my dad is rich, guys. His income is over 1000$ every two weeks.
I don't get it. He's on drugs. THAT'S his "financial" problem.
FUCK, why are they doing this to me? It hurts so much. To have my dad call my mom a whore kills me.
My mom does so much for us. She tries to give us everything we ask for. She's stood up for us, lied for us. BEEN THERE for us when we needed her. Sure, she's an asshole sometimes, but all moms are cause they love you.
I really, really need someone to talk to.
But I've noticed something: nobody cares about my problems.
So fuck it. I calmly greet the afterlife.
Surely it's better than this.

dandeli_n @ 2003-10-01T02:50:00

2003-10-01T07:52:00Z

Great, someone's pissed at me.
Whatev. If you think I'm going to get hurt, cool.
It's my life, and I usually get vibes from people.
& the last statement I said to you was based on something you probably know nothing of.
I won't apologize, I think you owe me one. Don't give me the whole "I JUST DON'T WANT YOU HURT" shit, I don't care about the past anymore. I'm happy.

Anyways, I'm about to go to bed.
I have a new AIM sn.
a moment that is
:D!

HIGHLIGHT of my day:

dandeli_n @ 2003-09-30T23:11:00

2003-10-01T04:10:08Z

K lol @ U!!11.
Uh. I have nothing to update about. I'm OFF tomorrow.
WAIT ITS 11:11 better make a wish.
I missed you. GOD, you'll just never know how much.

dandeli_n @ 2003-09-30T13:26:00

2003-09-30T18:27:45Z

I had to leave work early cause I was so tired.
Bleh. I need another job.
& You all will never ever guess who I'm friends with again.
I don't care what you think, I missed their friendship and their company when I couldn't sleep. I missed the talk of grilled cheeses & romeo and juliet.
I suggest you fuck off if you think I made a bad decision.

dandeli_n @ 2003-09-30T00:46:00

2003-09-30T07:47:31Z

It's nice to see you again, I love what you've done with your hair.
The way it falls on your cheeks.

dandeli_n @ 2003-09-29T23:42:00

2003-09-30T04:43:43Z

I went to Lacie's house and helped her paint.
I'm never hanging out with her again.
Ever.
I never realized how much I fucking hate her until tonight.
She cares about nothing except for drugs and herself.
Fuck her. She called to apologize for ditching me. (She ditched me almost two weeks ago.)
What a friend. Fuck you, Lacie. Fuck. You.
I love my new friends and of course my interweb friends.
I mean it, I love each and every single one of you.

dandeli_n @ 2003-09-29T18:50:00

2003-09-29T23:55:16Z

Work today was cool. Sold stuff. Hung out with Tanishia, Keshia, Abby, Ashley, & John. John is the guy I've been talking to. He turned 20 today :-D. HE'S A LIBRA. AND HE GOT MY PHONE NUMBER. AND WE'RE GOING TO THE MOVIES THIS WEEKEND. I GET PAID THIS WEEKEND. WOO!
I told him happy birthday & he was like. "AWW! You remembered!"
^_^. Well, duh.
Kay he's like. Gorgeous. And smart. And funny. He doesn't go for looks, he likes an "original" personality. We talk about a LOT of things, I hope he comes by tomorrow. TEEHEE. He usually does come by and he talks to me at work. MY STALKER CAME BY TODAY.
Oh, I didn't tell any of you about my stalker. Hahahah. It's too long to type out but yeah. I told my stalker to buy something from me & he goes "I'll buy something expensive tomorrow when I get paid."
WEE.
Anyways, yeah.
John was all like "I've been single for way too long, I want to get serious."
;)!!!
Mk. Yeah. IRL STYLEZ. I love being out everyday with my new friends and talking to guys.
BYE.

dandeli_n @ 2003-09-29T00:03:00

2003-09-29T05:03:58Z

You aren't a disaster.
I am.

The scary part is, this analysis is right.

2003-09-28T20:35:43Z

Free personality analysis from ColorQuiz.com.
Generated on Sun Sep 28 13:33:32 2003.

Your Existing Situation
Unwilling to extend herself or exert undue effort (with the possible exception of sexual activity). Feels that further progress requires more from her than she is willing or able to give. Would prefer reasonable comfort and security rather than the rewards of greater ambition.

Your Stress Sources
Disappointment and unfulfilled hopes have given rise to an anxious uncertainty, while doubts that things will be any better in the future lead to the postponement of essential decisions. This conflict between hope and necessity is creating considerable pressure. Instead of resolving this by facing up to making the essential decisions, she is likely to immerse herself in the pursuit of trivialities as an escape route.

Your Restrained Characteristics
Feels rather isolated and alone, but is too reserved to allow herself to form deep attachments. Egocentric and therefore quick to take offense.
Egocentric and therefore quick to take offense. Able to obtain physical satisfaction from sexual activity but tends to hold aloof emotionally.

Your Desired Objective
Feels she has been unjustly and undeservedly treated and betrayed in her hopes. Disgruntled and in revolt against her existing circumstance which she considers an affront.

Your Actual Problem
Disappointment at the non-fulfillment of her hopes and the fear that to formulate fresh goals will only lead to further setbacks have resulted in considerable anxiety. She tries to escape from this by withdrawing and protecting herself with an attitude of cautious reserve. Moody and depressed.

Your Actual Problem #2
Failure to establish herself in a manner consonant with her own high opinion of her worth, combined with the continued effort to prove herself with inadequate resources, have resulted in considerable stress. Tries to escape from these excessive demands on her meager reserves by adopting a defensive attitude in which she refuses to be committed, or to be involved in further unpleasantness.

dandeli_n @ 2003-09-28T00:12:00

2003-09-28T05:13:20Z

stolen from _infinite.

list five reasons you would date me, and five reasons you wouldn't. then post this in your own journal to see how dateable you are.

EDIT; new icons. they rule. don't steal them, i made them. UNLESS you're britlynn. britlynn can use them all she wants, we're josie x core 4 lyfe. bye.